Scarred

---Warning---
This isn't mature but it deals with dark stuff...
including cutting and brief sexual mention.
But nothing dirty actually happens so go ahead.

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Lapis sobbed softly and buried her head in her hands. She crouched to the floor before leaning up against a wall in the closet. Her mind was stuck back on that day. When she was forced to fuse.
She whimpered before some tears fell from her eyes. Jasper had also touched her while she was stuck on the ship. Peridot never knew, and she couldn’t bear telling her. She’d be too upset…
Lapis sobbed softly and pulled her knees to her chest. She remembered how scared she was when Jasper forced her against her cell wall…  And then she had to give her body to Jasper again to save Steven.

Lapis looked down to her side. Her vision was blurry from her tears, but she could make out the knife on the floor next next to her.
Picking it up, she  held out her arm and dragged the knife across. She grimaced in pain as she did it a few more times. Then she put the knife aside as she watched some blood began to rise out of the cuts.

“Lapis? Where are you?” Lapis jumped as she heard Peridot calling for her. Looking at the fresh cuts on her arm she stayed in place, hoping that Peridot wouldn’t find her. But it was pointless, since Peridot eventually opened the door. “Lapis I was looking-” she froze when she saw Lapis’ arm as she tried to put it behind her back.

“W-What is that? Lapis!” Peridot knelt down and pulled her arm forward. She saw the cuts and then looked down at the knife on the floor. “Lapis! Oh my God, what did you do you yourself!?” Lapis turned her head away.
“What….happened my angel…?” Lapis glanced up in surprise as Peridot’s calm voice. “I was just….I don’t know…” Peridot brought her arm up then kissed the marks, making Lapis blush in surprise. “Why didn’t you come to me…Lapis…i’m always here…” The blue gem teared up and jumped into Peridot’s embrace.

Peridot got up, holding her. “You’re stressed…what can I do…” Lapis shrugged as Peridot carried her to the bathroom to wash out her cuts.
“Do you want to go out somewhere?” Lapis shook her head. “Would you….like me to make you feel good..?” Lapis blushed slightly. “I…maybe…can you just hold me in bed for now?” Peridot smiled. “Yes, my sweetheart. I can.”